"I often wonder if I should’ve been born in another time."
#okay i need a minute here #i LOVED this scene #because at first i thought all it was was a cheeky nod to canon #oh har har what if he’d lived 100 years ago isn’t that funny #but it’s not JUST that #this is something that seems to have genuinely kept him up at night #something he almost seems to long for; something he wishes he could know for certain #and it’s something deeply personal. he doesn’t just brush it off as bullshit like he did his anders reveal in 1x03 #(that we later learned was partially the truth in 2x04) #listen to how upset he gets when he says he never would’ve spoken up if he knew the meeting had been compromised by mycroft #this is such a difference from sherlock using his NA meetings to practice going into a trance state #such a difference from regaling everyone with the story of the blue carbuncle rather than talking about his addiction #and you know what broke my heart the most? #100 years ago? … he was still the same addict he is here.